March 8, 2024
Each step I take, you make a way…
You’re the God of All My Days
Well…this is a new song. What happened to starting the meeting with “Holy Spirit?” Maybe she is trying to shake things up; tonight would be different. I could feel it.
You are Holy Lord - bring us into Your presence - let the cares of the week melt away - let us just be with you for this hour and a half - I love you Jesus - Thank you for this day - Thank you for dying on the cross for us - Thank you - I worship you - We praise you Jesus - Come Jesus - Come Holy Spirit - Help us say YES to you on this night - Lord we need you - ohhh, we need you! Every hour of every day - Our one defense - Our righteousness - Take a deep breath in; the Holy Spirit is so strong in here tonight.
In that moment, I let it all go. Jesus came to me, in great authority. He came so close to me that our foreheads were touching. I could feel the dampness of sweat on our skin. He grabbed the sides of my face; I was a younger version of me, but not quite a child. My hair was up in a ponytail and I was wearing purple. I close my eyes, I bowed my head and I let the tears fall. Why was I looking down? Why was I not looking at Him? He said child, you are mine. You are right here. I am right here. Nowhere else; no one else, but you and me. He says “my girl,” I only belong to Him. He said, “my girl why do you doubt? I can do anything. Let me do it. I can heal anything. You need to do nothing, but look into my eyes and know that I will make a way.
PRAISE AND ASK; THERE IS NOTHING HE CAN’T DO!
This was my first vision of the night. As the night continued, I realized it wasn’t just me who was having visions (if you didn’t share, I would love to hear). Stefanie shared her vision ~ I see Jesus and He is so big. The world is full of darkness, but right now He is dressed in a pink robe. It’s stretched out over the whole world. As he wraps Himself over the world and over all of us, every single one of us begin to sing … “this little light of mine, I’m going let it shine, let it shine, let it shine.” Around the whole world, little lights are shining. The little lights are forming a smile; the smile of Jesus.
Ginny shared with us a beautiful testimony of faith and adoration of the Eucharist in another country. A church agreed to adoration with one condition “Don’t leave Him alone.” It made me think of Jesus being in every tabernacle in every church around the world. Alone in the church locked up for the night, but the light, I can actually visibly see the light shining over the tabernacle. Jesus can never be overshadowed by darkness. Ginny left us with this profound truth, “We can have Jesus whenever we want.” AMEN Ginny!! We can have Jesus whenever we want; maybe not the true body in the Eucharist, but within our hearts. Our hearts are tabernacles of love; tabernacles of the body of Christ. We can have Jesus whenever we want, we just have to look within and OPEN up our hearts to encounter Jesus in our most vulnerable and honest selves. He loves you exactly the way you are; he just wants you to be honest with Him; in all of your brokenness; in all of your flaws; He knows ALL of you ALREADY; but when you tell him, when you say them out loud and you are honest, then you are giving yourself the opportunity to truly let Him love you exactly the way you are.
Maria then shared her vision ~ In the first song we played, I saw us all in the desert. I kept wanting to leave the desert, but Jesus was right there with us. He was down there in the desert and we kept going to Him. If God is for us, then who can be against us. This reminds me of Anne’s surrender story last week. All of the surrender stories I have heard. Jesus came for the broken ones. Jesus came for the sinners. Jesus came to HEAL. He came for YOU. Humanity is filled with sin, pain, suffering, wounds, spirits that are not of God, secular beliefs, but Jesus came to HEAL that. Every single chain no matter how big or small. He can break everyone of them, just by saying His name. THERE IS POWER IN THE NAME OF JESUS.
Janine then began to share ~ God has been very real with me. Joy and sorrow in the both and; they are always both there. Throughout the past 22 years, He has never gone away. He DOESN’T go away. I go away. He allows me to reject him. He allows me to get angry at him. I love him conditionally, but He loves me anyway UNCONDITIONALLY. I know I don’t love Him that way, but He doesn’t care. He lets me be exactly who I am and says “I love you anyway.” In a particular story she shared, there was a lot of anger and hate towards someone. She tried to pretend like it wasn’t there to Jesus, but he called her out on it. You can be real because you don’t forgive this person; you are angry at them; you do have hate towards them. A lot of times we don’t want to have the emotions we have, but He doesn’t care! He will be there with you anyway. God will NEVER GO AWAY - NO MATTER WHAT. My seasons change, you stay the same…you are the God of All My Days.
At that moment a new member walked in and sat down next to me to my right. There was pure light in her. At the same time, the person to my left started praising out loud. I felt a fire burning inside. My whole body was hot. I was thanking Jesus for these women; I was feeling His power. The top of my neck began to tingle and I felt like something was leaving my body. It was Unforgiveness.
And then…it went to a whole other level when Stefanie began to speak…
If you are a parent, sibling, or have loved someone deeply who is in pain, there have probably been times when you said to them, give me your pain; I will take it from you because I love you that much. There have probably been times too when you have bargained with Jesus to give you the pain instead of them or to take you to Heaven instead of them (I know I have said that). That’s what Jesus does for us! Jesus says to us, I want to take your pain away. I want all of it. I want to you heal to perfection. Just ask me. I want to take it. Don’t be afraid to ask! I am that good parent/sibling/loved one; I want to take it from you - give it to me.
Janine confirmed that we all needed to hear this. Right now in this song, There is Power in the Name of Jesus began; put on your suit, it’s time to do business with Jesus. He 100% HEALS! His plan though is ALWAYS better, do not limit Him though, but truly ASK. He will always listen. He doesn’t always do it our way, but the truth is our way is the never the right way. His way is the only way.
And the song begins…
Ask him to step in and heal the chains that have bound you. He wants you to know that you are LOVED, WANTED, and SEEN. We live in a way that makes us believe we are alone, abandoned, rejected, but we are not. We are LOVED, WANTED and SEEN. Be bold here! He wants to break those chains. He wants to love you exactly as you are. What is it that you want to ask for healing in?
A broken bone, a pain in your hip, arthritis, cancer, a disability, addiction, abandonment, rejection, unforgiveness, doubt, fear, hopelessness, control…JUST ASK! What it is that does not let you live and love freely? Ask for God to HEAL that because HE WILL. He 100% will. He is the healer of our souls. He is a gentleman though; he will not go beyond what we invite him into doing. So BE BOLD; ASK and open that part of your heart to him. Everything in your life will change. I feel a fire in me tonight and a closeness to Jesus. Something is different in me than when I showed up here tonight.
I could feel it. I could feel that we were praying differently tonight. We were boldly asking to be healed. We were coming broken and sorrowful. We were coming with our SURRENDER and our ASK. Keep asking. Do not stop. Ask again and again and again. Boldly. Believe in the miracle. He will never run out of them. Keep going, do not hold back. Keep going.
Originally I didn’t add this part of our meeting to the minutes. We also did something very different tonight. We prayed for a friend who was not present or part of our prayer group. She has recently been diagnosed with cancer and is undergoing surgery in the upcoming week. Almost all of us have participated in prayer teams and have been prayed over, but we have never as a group prayed for someone in this way. We began by imagining her in the middle of our circle and we raised our hands up to the Lord. The moment I saw her when Stefanie told us to imagine her being right here, I could see her standing up tall. She had a big smile on her face with her beautiful white teeth showing. She had great clothes, great hair, and she just looked “perfect,” true beauty from the inside out. As we began our prayer, she sat down in the chair - I could feel the power coming from our hands. Huge power. I placed my hands over a part of her abdomen; I wondered where everyone else placed their hands. By the time we were done praying over her, she was almost bent in half; head between her legs, surrendering EVERYTHING to God. I mean, she could not bend in half anymore. It didn’t even seem possible the way she was bent. It was her physical appearance of surrender. I opened my eyes and saw all of our hands up praying over her and Jesus came in HUGE, above and around every single one of us. He enveloped us in a huge hug. He wrapped his arms around us and we were all together in a giant embrace - it was more than a hug.
How powerful is His name…how powerful is His healing hand…
“Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace.” Luke 8:48
